My First Post

Man, I never thought I would be doing this. I am trying to figure out all this technology stuff. I have decided to do this because I think it will be good for me. My CPM, Committee on Preparation for Ministry tells me I need more reflection in my life. This seems like a pretty good way to do that. We will see how that goes. Alot of my friends from Seminary have blogs, so I said what the heck. We'll see how well I do at this.

Here's my story, I am currently a seminary student, whose doing an internship in Pensacola. I am 25 years old and at a point in my life where I am finally realized that I will live have to live in this world on my time. This is the first time in my life, when I go home from school or work that there is no one around to hang out with. I usually had friends in College or Seminary that I hang out with, but not this summer. It's been good for me. I now know what's its like to live alone, and I don't really want to do that. Living alone is tough, I now see how hard it is for elderly people. I find myself talking to myself all the time, its not because I'm crazy, atleast I don't think so, its because it's nice just to hear a voice, sad that it is my voice.

My family situation is getting interesting as well. My mother passed away four years ago, and that has been tough over the years. Now my dad started dating someone, and he is getting married in two weeks. Everything has moved so fast. He is going to move out of the house I grew up in and move into her house with her two 12 and 16 year old kids. Not much my house is going to make it. This has caused alot of questions on my part. First where is my sense of home now, second where do the memories of my mom fit into this new phase of my sense of family, and third where do i fit in. I don't now the answers, but I have decided that I am going to have to figure out these things on my own. I now will do the things on my time, I am not 17 where you go with the family to things. Family vacations will be my figuring out. I might not want to spend Christmas in Birmingham, maybe I want to visit my mom's family. I will figure that out myself.